And I am not doing anything....
Yup...!! I am a lazy fool who presently has nothing to do. So I am doing nothing. Better still I am planning to stop drinking as well. The damn thing doesn't do a thing for me. So here I am in the same room that I was yesterday, last year...doing nothing.
But it is never too late to make resolutions. It is a ritual. You make a resolution and then how long you can hold on to it before you break it. Dad says that he is going to quit smoking. I think I can beat him with both hands tied and my neck in a brace. But I want him to quit!! Just know that he had made the same resolution last year as well.
Why don't I get nice snaps? All my pics are funny looking. I mean I look like a freak or a psycho. If I try to look serious it looks like I have lost my job or something (It is recession time and I am one of the few who have a job...so you know losing a job right now can make you look really sad). So I really need to figure out how to change things because I figured that if I look thaaaat bad in a photo then I prbably don't look like Adonis in real life either yeah? So my new year resolution is to do something about that.
Wait Wait...!!
You don't get the entire picture. I don't intend to only look good. I know for sure that it is not going to work in that way. I have seen very good looking people look stupid once you begin to know them better coz they are empty shells. I intend to be a completly upgraded version of myself in this new year. Should be fun to try....see I get immediate rewards.
Plus I have nothing else to worry about. I have a job and the grades don't matter any more. I do need to learn something about the job that I am going to do but still my mind will be relatively free. So I was thinking what all to do...?
There is the physique yeah? I have to lose some of the flab. Then there is the wardrobe. I am thinking ..if I iron my clothes more often and wash them from time to time....I should not have a problem in that area. The trouble is discipline. It seems a concept meant for astro physicists when it comes to me. I simply don't know how to have discipine in my life. I guess quite a few of those problem will go away if I can get around this one.
Chalo no issues....What else is there?
hhhhmmmmmmm.......hmmmmmm.......hmmmmm......
You know what? I am shy.
Yes I know.....in case you know me, you must be thinking that last night's drink is still in the system. No, that is not true. I am shy. In a very strange manner.
I am crazy fella really....But there are things that I am shy about. Like the way I feel for someone...or When I want to do something outrageous but I stop thinking that .....well it all comes to the mess that I am when I feel funny about some one. I just don't know what to say?...what to do? I am a complete mess.
Must do something about that.....What? I don't know...Will have to figure that one out.
And what else?
It has been suggested that sometimes I am a complete idiot. That sometimes I fail to pick the simplest and most obvious hints.
I am not without blame here. Sometimes I delibrately shut my senses down. I like it that way....
You know....when I am with friends....I kinda like to not think that much about things.
Well it seems that my friends don't share my enthusiasm in this respect. So from here on......
no no
I am not going to be a complete non-idiot. That is me and that will remain......
But I will try to be a better idiot than before ...as in I will try to keep my senses intact for a slightly longer time than usual. Give the guys a break so to speak.....
I think the trick will be to keep the antennae up and not care for the signals until some red flag comes up. Right now I think I shut the system and dump in some corner of my mind. I gotta let the system run and not be bothered by it till some alarms start ringing. That might just do the trick. See what a good guy I am....I do so much for my friends...!!!
Well I think those are mighty decent resolutions. How sooon I break them...only time will tell.
till the next time I come here to download my thoughts.....
tata
