Felicitas Adieu

She came unannounced, unexpected

like a cool breeze on hot summer noon

with a smile that betrayed knowledge 

of my desire to see her again.

She was here, she said, finally

And I stood aghast

for I had waited for this moment forever

But now knew not what to do

For I had loved her and wanted her

All throughout time

and toiled tirelessly against fate

to embrace her in my arms

She had been my muse

my goal and my love

and now that she stood in arms reach

I stand lost and bemused

What had changed? I ask myself

Have I become vain or have I become wise?

Why is this moment so apart from the way

I had imagined it in my times of despair and loneliness

Why do I now stand hesitant

unable to move, unwanting to touch

Lost and confused, yet

calm and clear at the same time

I had changed and so had she

(Work in Progress)